uts been a while

Hello friends wow its has been a while! little oh me has so much that been going on. feels like i been hit from every angle! but god is tough and he keeps me strong, i am startign to learn this more and more every day! i feel that i ned to strat writing down my feeling more , i think i hold way to much inside. Right now i am kinda upset but hey whay can i do nothing but pray! i wish i was tough so i coild beat up people who hurt the people i love. but i think i rather have god do the work for me in his own way! well friends have a great week and i will try o write more please please please pray for me alright! love ya tons rix

feeling lost sad ????

haev you ever felt liek you just wanted to cry but the tears were not ready to fall yet? well my tears are ready:( i dont know what it could be maybe i am just really happy about tomorrow and praiz or just scared to see what can happen. i dont know i just know God has powerful things in mind. i just going to ball my eyes out tomorrow but i will make sure i am alone, i hate people to see my weakness! praiz tomorrow is like a church event me and a group of friends have together when worship,drama,lesson i cant wait/ also i dont do good alone just chiling at home by myself scares the crap out of me! i need to get over this. because when becca band gets big and goes on tour what will i do ( maybe i will be married by then lol) nope they are going places and i know it is going to be soon! God has a plan for her band!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for me i need to find his will for my life????? i want to know it so bad it kills me in side. i love so many things which one can it be to help his kingdom grow???????? i not know it bugs me well i am going to go so i can worship God so please pray for me love ya . it so hard being surrounding by people who have what you want:( i know i need to love my self but that my friend is so hard!!!!!!!!! love you i will keeep my head up i will !!!!!night guys

life today

funny today i am so tired and i need to go to bed! thats where i am goign soon lol! so me and becca was driving to take the kid she baby sits home and we were talking about stuff we need to do and places we ned to rent out! (which is can drive one person crazy) lol did you find the joke in that lol any how then out of no where we look and we're like what is that in the road (the on ramp we were on) it was a like a lazy boy chair it was so funny it was sky blue too. I was thinking God is so funny he knew we needed a laugh. Also i think i am really tired becasue i was just looking at my poems thinking about them and also i wrote some things down that was on my mind. So my yeah my mind is tired lol. also my hours at work is changeing everyday. i am going to start writing blogs more and poems once again !yes i can't wait i want god to speak through me so i hope these will be two ways he can! also friends start praying for me please or keep praying for me i want to write songs and things like that. i need to start playing guitar again i cant wait! well friends good night and God bless!!!!!!! p.s i love a challenge so mine to you is talk to someone and tell them something nice and tell them have a bless day and watch the smile on their face ! i did that tonight and the person was like thank you! after they already they told me to have a great night.so that was cool , welp friends have a blessed week. (yes i know your smiling ) love ya

MY SATURDAY

hey friends, so I love it when I am driving and I think of cool blogs to write then when I get to the computer I forget. but any how I am working off 7 hours of sleep, not to bad I know you want to know why? I went to mount veron? some place 2 hours away my friends goodnight wednesday had a show and I went. Many Bands played and they all did a very good job. I really enjoy seeing people play with there all its cool just to see their passon for the music just to leave it all there on the stage it is great. well I should get going but til next time be your self dont let anyone try to tell you who you are. dont worry about what tv says and dumb ads tell you who should be. just be who you are and dont change for anyone. great words I heard last night from rye and miah!! well friends have a great week!

what makes you smile

hey friends just siting here trying to feel better. i was hit with a really tough cold last night it just came out of no where! but i am killing it with meds. The reason for this post is that i want you to tell me what makes you happy>? what makes you smile>? tell me then i will tell you my answer thanks loves!!!!!!!! talk to ya later!

I was thinking

What makes you think a guy/girl is cute? well while I was driving on break from work! I was like hmmm let me see. I dont really think its the smile or the lovely brown eyes but its what shining through. Huh i know your thinking what the heck? Their personally how they carrie their selfs how they treat people. I know people that i just love them because you can see their personally shining through,and their love for people. Also the way they love to listen just as much they love to tlak lol. I love advice from someone you can tell they put time into thinking about it before they told you! so awesome i love it! So friends next time you see that cute guy or pretty girl try telling your self what makes me think that. Also try to get to know that person because many people judge the book by its cover or judge a person by their looks. you get the point. So dont forget lady's and gents its way so much more then looks!!!!!!!